She wanted to learn to hunt because she thought it was cool. She didn’t know if it might become necessary someday.
On the weekend, she went to the forest with her friends to look for wild game. She owned a fact-checking business, and she needed to escape looking at screens.
She did not want to use a gun. She learned to shoot with a bow and arrow.
She discovered the most difficult prey is always worthwhile.
They scoured the wooded area, looking for small creature to shoot. They wore orange jackets to be visible. The squirrels heard them and ran away; the rabbits stood still, then bolted.
She saw a deer, and held her bow taut.
She looked directly into its eyes, but could not pull the arrow.
The deer pranced away, happy, as if it knew she were afraid.
“What is wrong with me?” she asked her fellow hunter.
“It’s your first time out, not everyone’s successful,” he said.
“But I was looking right into its eyes. It saw me, and we had a moment.”
“You shouldn’t feel sorry for them. They don’t know any better.”
“What if I have to feed myself someday? I’ll be a failure.”
“Not everyone is good at everything.”
“But this could mean survival.”
Life hadn’t come to that point. She trudged out of the forest with her hipster hunting friends. They went to a bar with their orange jackets and drank organic craft beer, and laughed about how she looked into the deer’s eyes, but could not shoot.
That night, she fell into a dark sleep. She dreamed the deer gazed into her eyes, and said, “You do not have rights to do what you think. Someday, we will take over the land, and you will fall back into it and become of the soil.”
She woke up, tasting dirt in her mouth.
What was the deer trying to communicate with her?
In the morning, she called her hunting partner, and said told him she wanted to go back to the forest.
“I dreamt the deer spoke to me,” she said.
She wandered around the area she saw the deer. She smelled smoke and looked up.
A fire spurted from a branch.
“What are you trying to say?” she said to nobody.
“You have no chance,” a voice said. “You should give up now.”
“Did you hear that?” she said to her friend.
“I didn’t hear anything.”
The fire above them dissipated, leaving the stench of smoke.
“I think we should leave, and never come back,” she said. “There’s life here we won’t ever understand.”
“But hunting was cool.”
“We shouldn’t hunt for pleasure. Someday, it will be necessary, but for now, we should live ordinary lives, and let nature alone.”
They left the forest, envisioning the time when the flora and fauna would grow and flourish and overthrow everything else. But for now, the humans were in charge, and she wanted to relish every moment until the world they knew disappeared forever.
Shannon O'Connor holds an MFA in Writing and Literature from Bennington College. She has been published previously in The Rye Whiskey Review, as well as Wordgathering, Oddball Magazine, 365 Tomorrows, Alien Buddha Press, and others. She is the chairperson of the Boston Chapter of the National Writers Union. In her spare time, she likes to play the tin whistle and dress up as Amelia Earhart, not always at the same time. She lives in the Boston area.