You with all your pedigrees:
MFA, PHD, professor, novelist,
husband and father of five.
Me: the girl in glasses gooey
eyed over your prose
published in the New Yorker
while MS magazine rejects
pathetic pieces I scribble
on toilet paper in the bathroom
of the bars in Mexico
where we sit on stools
bloody red as the bulls
and your face after downing
tequila straight from the bottle,
pickling the worm and you.
Me: the crying fool
who leaves you standing
on the train tracks weaving
and waving before you stumble
back to the suburbs. I picture
you on skid row or in a cemetery,
not on Google. Your dark curly
hair is gone, but I see you and me
in your novels and know the answer.
Sharon Waller Knutson is a retired journalist who lives in Arizona. She has published more than thousand poems in numerous journals and ten poetry books, the most recent, The Vultures are Circling, forthcoming in January by Cyberwit.