It’s a little past midnight on November 9
the best gay bar in Buffalo feels like a funeral
drag queens weeping & holding bouquets of wilted iPhones
language is burning holes in our hands
the bartender tries juggling liquor bottles
but they all come crashing to the floor
some people just don’t give a fuck
the young kids who snuck into the bar are ignoring the world around them
getting drunk & sloppily singing Beyoncé
who thought karaoke on election night was a good idea
but here we all are
my shirt’s off
some guy who looks like Roy Orbison is giving me a tattoo
the electoral college map carved into my chest
it’s turning me on
my body a canvas of American mistakes
most of me hemorrhaging in anger
whatever’s left tangled up in blue
it all seems like a dream
the way everyone is moving through the bar
like psycho strung out fish floating in the ocean
a couple of my friends look like male seahorses & they won’t stop crying
now Roy is pouring whiskey down my back & over my chest
I feel like I’m on fire
my friends ask if I’m alright
now I’m babbling about how there’s not much difference
between the human eye & the male seahorse
like sometimes a male seahorse will give birth to thousands of babies at once
I’ve seen it on YouTube
it looks like a sudden snow flurry
a goddamn revelation
because sadness works the same way
like sometimes your eyes give birth to thousands of teardrops at once
now I’m freaking out
scared that it really is the end of the world
because only about five out of every thousand baby seahorses
survive to adulthood
so that means most of the sadness
we’re experiencing right now
will drift along in the plankton layer of America’s apathetic ocean
die alone in the darkness
now I’m telling everyone at the bar
we gotta collect the dread all around us
we gotta scoop up all those baby seahorses lost in the wilderness
bring ‘em home
because what kind of person would just sit around & do nothing
while the American heart becomes a desert full of seahorse bones
by night’s end Roy is cradling me in his arms & singing “Crying”
I drift off to half-sleep as the whole wide world burns to the ground
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