a hollow darkness by J.J. Campbell

i was 23 and madly in love 

with a woman that wanted 

nothing to do with me

i never could tell from the way 

we kissed or the way we fucked

but after a loud evening of alcohol 

and knives

i was suddenly burdened with 

the truth

i was a weigh station

a rest stop on a road i was unaware 

i had turned on

there is a hole in my heart that 

never recovered from this

a hollow darkness that teases 

me at night

who thinks about dying alone 

while watching porn

all your better angels died 

years ago

just us lonely souls out here 

now

how this all ends

your guess is as good as mine

but i expect an urn, a toilet 

and someone needing someplace 

to hide their drugs

J.J. Campbell (1976 - ?) is old enough to know better. He's been widely published over the years, most recently at Synchronized Chaos, Disturb the Universe Magazine, The Beatnik Cowboy, Lothlorien Poetry Journal and Black Coffee Review. You can find him most days on his mildly entertaining blog, evil delights. (https://evildelights.blogspot.com)