Youngstown Ohio is a dead city
where my dead grandfather was born in 1925
and lived for four years before his dad died
and the family moved back to Spain
where he'd stay
until he realized at 23 that his citizenship
was his ticket away from the tyrant in power
so he took a boat to New York
I was in Youngstown today
the first member of the family in two generations
to see the spot he'd called home
since he himself returned in the late 70's
only to realize they'd razed the place
along with the the whole neighborhood
along with the whole economy
along with all the will and means people had to survive there
All that was clinging to life 40 years ago is gone now
and in it's place is blocks and blocks of empty lots
only instead of the condemned buildings
and piles of rubble my grandfather Gerardo saw
instead of the crime and poverty
that seemed to crush the concept of his childhood
pieced together as it was from pictures and stories
is silence as wild grass and flowers blow in the breeze
of a May morning
just like him
the ugly part of his dying days
have faded
and in it's place is fertile soil for new beginnings
He was a farmer
and a bee keeper
back in Spain
in America he kept the family fed in the summertime
by turning the backyard into an urban farm
before hipsters coined the concept
because it made him feel home
and that's why earlier
as I stood in front of a field
that used to have a mailbox that read
355 Summit Street – The Martin Family
I dug up a patch of grass
and planted some tomatoes around a
Private Property – No Trespassing sign
so the Martin family could live in that soil again
and climb that sign
until it fell over
under the weight of their future
Ezhno Martin doesn't believe in god, pronouns, american exceptionalism, most conventions of capitalization, monogamy, any form of censorship, that 9/11 was real, casseroles, coming to a full stop at stop signs, chivalry, patriotism, hand washing after bathroom visits, rough sex, decorum, the importance of biological families, and/or that The New York Knick's are ever going to get their shit together. Ezhno lives in Toledo, Ohio. Ezhno is now from Toledo, Ohio, because that's how that works. You can't misgender Ezhno, because Ezhno doesn't believe in genders, pronouns, safe spaces or any of that social-justice-warrior-rich-kid-with-a-complex bullshit. Just say “nice ass” if you're feeling nervous or confused about the fact that the 6'2” Adonis that is Ezhno hates your counter culture just as much as the culture it opposes.